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Cake day: July 6th, 2023

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  • I have imposter syndrome in life. I constantly feel like having to behave in a way I’m not. I’m often times scared in the public in fear of embarrassment or whatever. Certain scenarios already make me freak out in my head before they even have a chance to occur. I keep on not … living … enjoying life. always fearsome of bad things to happen in the future, not giving myself time and room to grieve. My last relationship took my belief that everything is going to be fine, and I was kinda bitter before that already.

    I also have imposters at work esp. because I don’t have any degree whatsoever to prove that I know what I am doing, but since it’s worked out for a couple of years that is kind of the least worry most of the time.









  • At my last job we used a proprietary rapid application development tool to do … everything. It had been used for decades and it’s basically a designer window like Microsoft’s asp net stuff and pseudo code in the background for multi Plattform Desktops and web Applications. The rad in itself is okay: it is written in c++, reasonably fast and has node and js integrations. Buut as said the tool had been used for decades without major refactorings or rewrites or what not. So the codebase was a mix of awful ( you can name variables if so if if is possible ) and straight up outdated. I’d regularly find „commit-comments“ (the integrated vcs is also shit) written before I was born. It was a pain to work with. And we never used the js or node integrations since the new dev lead didn’t know much about developing outside of in said tool which made everything more complicated. So I’m kinda happy to work with js now.