Wtf is a doctor?

Let me out of jail

Not having children is my retirement. I will probably work till I’m old and gray so I just tuck what I can away, buy things that hold value, and live my life.

Tbh…just lie. Base it firmly in reality though and get your story straight. Astroturf the entire reference with people you know, who may or may not have been involved with the reality. Make it believable to the rest of the application. Chances are your references will be passed over entirely anyway while whoever is doing the bare minimum to get through their work day checks over your application.

This may or may not be good advice. 🤷

Well said.

Took me a while to recognize the instilled behavior, and even longer to unwind the tendrils and it’s effects on my life in general. Capitalism has instilled a martyr complex into us.

I am a go where the wind blows kind of person and settled on working for myself. Much out of necessity as well, cause a company would absolutely not hire me anymore. I am still “poor”, but I make my own schedule at least. If I’m gonna get fucked, I’d like to choose how.

I believe money is used to replace God so a select few can have unlimited access to the “source”. A false “god” is then permitted to be pushed on the people for further oppression.

It’s actually all my fault, everyone.

This is quite revealing. I’m hyper focused on some of my past and present behavior now and feel like a damn hypochondriac at this point.

We’ve got two blind cats. They’re indoor, but we take them in the yard and let them do their thing under supervision. Trying to catch bugs will usually just end up in a bee sting, and catching small game is largely out of the question. Tho they have chased deer away.

The coyotes around me are massive. I thought I was seeing things one night as a big ass German Shepard sized dog walked cross my yard.

That is pretty funny to think about. Dangerous, but amusing.

I know when my cat bites my partner for food or attention she just let’s him do it. Then she’ll freak out all flustered, I’m like ya your literally letting him do it. Throw him out of the bathroom ffs!

I have to be more strict with myself cause I’m prone to extremely unhealthy coping mechanisms for dealing with people. I can deal with most bs nowadays and find it amusing at least, but once you get into “I genuinely enjoy drama” territory then you gotta go from my life. So that’s kind of a bunch of people off the bat lol.

That is many people’s mentality, yes. It probably depends if you were the one being tortured or were close. Pain can be ignored if not directly felt, especially if it means whatever you think your survival entails.

I’m not comfortable with it, but I’m not comfortable with life either.

It really does all start with you. Self acceptance, reflection, and mindfulness go a long way in dealing with others. Love yourself, others will love you. Practice it. Practice doing it in the wild. Don’t get hung up on how you come across. Life is a joke in the grand scheme. This mentality tends to draw people to you as well. Not sure if this is good advice but it’s worked for me. Also, know yourself and your limits. Set boundaries. Have realistic goals and expectations. People will disappoint you, doesn’t mean you have to disappoint yourself. 🙃

That’s some excellent advice friend.

The whole reddit thing aligned with other events in my life that pissed my sensibilities off, even more than i can usually stand, and i have learned to stand alot. It made me realize how much of my life was at the whims of greedy fucks who I don’t agree with at all. Evolution through revolution I guess. woke me up in a way, a feeling that I’ve long forgotten tbh with you all. And that’s mostly because of all of you and your ideas.

Lemmy is just good for me.

Those out for self interest are shortsighted, and what WE are doing is pushing in the right direction IMHO. Someone’s gotta push and here we are.

Yea putting it on paper makes it real, easier to decipher, discard, and make true. I love writing and I’m far better at communicating that way than speaking. Public speaking for me is a confidence issue. It takes me forever to get comfortable with someone, and a little longer to be open and spontaneous. I’m good once I get there, but ultimately I’m better at writing than speaking. I find myself dumbing things down, for others and myself, to the point of intelligibility lol.

These kinds of posts are what I’m here for.

I relate so much to this. For me, I’ve largely become a recluse. This is the most I interact with people at large. I have not been diagnosed, in fact I have only seen a regular doctor once in my adult life.

My best friend was autistic, and I believe he rubbed off on me in a way, in how I think about the world, and myself. That’s my only explanation.

So I really feel your emotions here, as I’m super similar to you. I’m not sure what your best move is, but I just want to tell you that you are far more beautiful than you allow yourself to be, and no person is worth you suppressing yourself. Water it down, sure, but I think you should try to open up to the roomies a little at a time, and you may be surprised to find that they find you to be a wonderful human being, and extremely relatable.

Now I know this approach doesn’t work with everyone, trust me, which is why I am very picky with who I surround myself with, but I think you have a unique perspective and experience that could better this world.

Thanks for opening up, and I’m sorry if I was unhelpful, I just thought I’d say HI and let you know I appreciate you.

Consciousness is a crazy thing. It’s such a unique state of being for matter to take, and it wouldn’t surprise me if Consciousness was, itself, a force that could be measured. After all, we as conscious beings can alter the world around us in everyway, only limited by our physical bodies. Perhaps Consciousness is it’s own universe, that we have only begun to understand. In my life I’ve experienced things I can’t explain, but I’d call much of it extreme empathy, like Consciousness is all linked, where with practice, thoughts, feelings, and vibration can be transmitted through it, like radio signals. Perhaps it’s more simple than that, or not at all, but I enjoy dreaming (:

This checks out in my addled thought experiments.

Like before or during the creation of the universe, there was matter, and it’s opposite. They canceled each other out, but there just so happened to be a tiny tiny bit more matter than anti matter, so we have a universe largely made of matter. Would we even be able to tell a difference if it was anti matter that won out? -my vague recollection of a science channel show.

Creation itself is the battle between nothing, and everything, like a battery, it is one thing. Duality is an invention of man.

It’s my favorite thing to think about.

As my uncle used to say, who just died the other day and who’s body is stuck in Mexico lol:

“There is no duality Baba!”