I’m an hour early for the bus and trying to decide on what to eat so I can past the 2 hours until I get to the eating point. Can’t decide what to eat. Too anxious. Dumplings, I’ll eat dumplings. Something about using chopsticks I really enjoy.
Bus leaves in 30 minutes, the stop is 5 minutes walk away. I have my dumplings. Still so anxious. I arrive at the bus stop and eat my dumplings. Its now 15 minutes til the bus leaves, I’m exactly on time.
Finally some relief when I’m sitting in the bus checked in and ready to go.
I’m going on holiday to ride mountain bikes for 5 days. I should be excited.
Anyone else gets this?
I sometimes wonder if this simply comes from a lifetime of being late, missing appointments and generally expecting oneself to forget something important.
I also hate being scared to do something because I might forget time and miss the important appointment. Usually it is possible to set a timer. But sometimes it feels dumb to set a timer for 10 minutes but then I hate waiting. Luckily for me it all is still on the scale of annoying rather than hindering my life in any major way. But still a lot of time goes into just being early and not doing shit because other shit is up later.
I’ve had some success reframing the anxious feeling as excitement - I’ll try thinking “I’m feeling pretty excited for xyz” instead of “I’m feeling so anxious”. They feel pretty similar bodily, with tension and increased heart rate etc
